another xmas as come and gone without you my love it does'nt really get any easier it is so hard to come to terms with what happened to you,maybe one day i will,i have so many wonderful memories of our life together,and i love and miss you so much ,i still cry for you a lot when i am on my own,i know you would be mad at me if you could see me,but you are so wonderful to think of but so hard to live without sleep well my love untill we meet again i will love and miss you till then xxxxxxx your loving fiance marie